Yup so this is gonna be a long entry. Love it, hate it, don’t really care

So last week my bitch, Angel came in from Arizona to visit and WOW was I happy to see her ass leave. Good god, what a pain in my ass. Gets drunk all over my house, attempts headstands, high kicks, almost kills our cat by squeezing him to death and insisting shes good with pets while intoxicated, molests me, molests my boyfriend, molests my friends, molests my couch, the list goes oooooon and oooooooon. What a freak. (Hey, you pestered me for an update!) On a serious note, she’s partially considering a move out here to the good ole East Coast since she seemed to like it here so Im excited! Her and the hubs are definitely coming to visit next May to see if he likes it and then from there we shall see. I think it’ll be a lot of fun though! I’d never sleep again but hell, we would be drunk and fabulous 24/7.

This past weekend was soooo much fun though. I wish I could go, rewind it and do it all over again lol. Friday night, Angel and Hillary came over to hang out with me, Mike, Stacey, and Chuck. Those two got trashed and we all sat back and watched in awe after taking Hillary’s keys from her lol. Then all I know is around 4am, half of the house was emotional and crying over god knows what so I took that as my cue to go to bed lol. After lying in bed for about 15 minutes (Mike and I butt naked under the covers, mind you), I hear tip-toeing footsteps come up to my side of the bed and go, “no no no, thats Shawna…” then I hear them walk around to the other side where Mike is and nudge him a few times till he wakes up lol. Hillary needed her keys (she was now pretty sober at this point) so that they could drive back to Kristen’s apartment since that was where they were staying. Mike grabs a towel and follows them downstairs to get her keys and all I heard was there was an almost dropping of the towel and nipples involved. I didn’t dare ask for further information lol.

So Saturday, Mike and I went to his friend Chris and Laura’s house for a little Memorial Day BBQ which involved a lot of lighter fluid, fire and a charcoal grill. Oh and 3 guys who really didn’t know what they were doing. And should I include the fact that I had hairspray in my hair? Do not worry friends, I did not go up in flames that day, although I felt like I was about it when they just kept going, “ahahaha fire’s fun *sprays fluid* ahahaha.” Then Mike had the brillant idea of “lets sneak into their ONLY bathroom (which is right outside the kitchen where most people were hanging out) and have sex.” Yeah lets just say after getting pulled in there without notice, we were quickly pulled back out by Laura lol. So we left the party to go home and have sex lolol. Then we went to the Japanese Hibachi Steakhouse with Stacey, Chuck, Angel, Hillary, Kristen and my dad for Mike’s birthday dinner. Twas yummy and I caught the shrimp that was pelted at me I make my family proud.

Sunday, we went to Great Adventure for the day. It was me, Mike, Stacey, Chuck, Brittany, and her friend Chelsie. We were there from around 12pm till 1030pm that night (the massive blisters I had on the sides of my pinky toes prove it. Damn Converses). We had an absolute blast, thanks to the assistance of the Flash Pass (yes, it is so awesome, it gets italicized). Instead of waiting in line for 3+ hours in some cases, thanks to this little device that looks similar to a GigaPet (speaking of which, I want one) the longest we waited was 20 minutes for Kingda Ka. It was an extra like $44 a person but SO worth it. I refuse to go back without it.

Monday was a pretty lazy day actually, just hung out around the house since it was Memorial Day and we all had off from work. Mike went over to my mom’s house for a bit since he is redoing Brittany’s shower in her bathroom since the tiles were starting to fall out of the wall.

Speaking of those kind of issues, we are SO pissed with our apartment complex. We are about to file escrow paperwork on them so that we dont have to pay next month’s rent because of their stupidity. When we moved in on the 1st, there was a total screw-up with our paperwork and instead of getting our 2 bedroom apartment, they had us down for a 3 bedroom so they were preparing the wrong apartment for us. So while we were pissed off, it wasn’t the current manager’s fault (the one that rented us our place got fired because of this) so we were patient with them in fixing little things in our place that still needed to be arranged (sanding/repainting some areas, light bulb fixtures missing, Stacey’s bedroom ceiling is 2 different shades of white cause they used half semi-gloss, half flat paint, and etc.). But again, we called maybe once every other day to see the status on them coming over to finish things up and we kept getting a date, then they wouldn’t show up. It is now almost a month since we have moved in, and there is a list of things that should have been done BEFORE we moved in but still haven’t been completed. Well the final straw was on Tuesday night we got a pretty bad rainstorm. I was sitting in Stacey’s room with her when all of a sudden it sounded like a waterfall from somewhere. We look at her window and there is water pouring in through the window! Then it starts dripping down from her ceiling, so I run upstairs to look at our bedroom and water is literally pouring in from that window too, dripping onto the floor which is causing her ceiling to leak. I call the emergency number, get a call back about 30 minutes later and am told that the roofing contractor has to come out and look at it and its not maintenance’s problem. So fine, whatever - we call the office the next day asking about it. They tell us the roofer is gonna come out that day to take a look at the roof to see what could be causing a possible leak. I then ask when they are gonna come out to look at the windows, fix the water damage caused and finish the rest of the stuff that we were promised WEEKS ago. Im told I’ll get a call back in an hour to arrange a day for them to come out. Well guess what? I never get a phone call. So Mike goes over to the rental office after work yesterday, talks to the manager and she says that the maintenance guys will be out on Friday to finish everything in the townhouse and that the roofer will be over our house within the hour to check out the roof. Guess who NEVER showed up last night? That’s right, the ROOFER. I’m so sick and tired of the bullshit I’ve had with this place in the past month. So Mike is calling them on the way home from work today and telling them that we are calling the Better Business Bureau and looking into filing escrow papers which means we will give the courts our rent money and they will hold onto it until the complex finishes the things that should have been finished when we moved in. Watch how fast their asses get out there to do it then. I’m also gonna talk to my dad today about all of this since he manages another apartment complex and should have some knowledge on our legal rights. I’ll get a lawyer if I have to, I don’t care anymore.

Tonight Im going to get my 4th tattoo! Im excited but nervous at the same time lol. Mike’s friend Rachel’s, brother is doing it for me on the back of my neck. I really like his work, he did my sister’s last week and it turned out really nice. Im more nervous about it being on the back of my neck, I know that aint gonna feel great LOL. But it’s all good, it’ll be pretty and I’ll take pictures as soon as I can

May  23

Oh Snapz - Purchases! 2008, 2:19 PM - Word Count: 143 - Filed Under: General - 10 Comments

Who bought 4 new pair of shoes AGAIN today? That would be ME, ladies and gentlemen. I’m telling you - these places online that you can buy shoes, clothes and etc. for incredibly cheap are my drug dealers to my shoe addiction. Yes the chances are more then likely that they fell off the back of a truck, but hey whatever - god bless those thieves. They are my friends.

ANYWAY. Pictures!

Aren’t they ADORABLE?! Oh and got all 4 of them for $115 WITH shipping! Sigh. I’m so incredible, I’m jealous of myself.

 Camille, Chide, Danika, Jen, Jessa, Kalelea, morgan, rana, risa, Shoko

May  20

I’m So Lost… 2008, 9:54 PM - Word Count: 585 - Filed Under: Friends, General, Life, Love, Site - 3 Comments

I have finally realized that I feel so unbelievably empty and lonely when Mike is away for work. He thankfully is coming home on Thursday instead of Friday this week but I am like seriously so depressed when he’s away. I guess that’s what love does to you, eh? If you read this baby, I miss and love you soooo much I can’t wait till you come home and cuddle with me at night cause the bed is cold without you here! It’s hilarious though cause I find myself to be so snippy over the dumbest things too. Sigh. 2 more days. Then he comes home and Friday starts the birthday weekend that I have planned for him I think we are gonna have a blast with dinner on Saturday night with a bunch of friends and family and then Sunday we are going to Great Adventure for the day with Chuck and Stacey. I can’t wait!

Its been a good week otherwise nonetheless. I hate that I’m back at work after a 3 day weekend but thankfully I have another one coming up, thanks to Memorial Day. Angel came in on Saturday for the week and I hung out with her and Danika last night - just sitting around, talking, watching TV, just hanging out. It’s been so cool to get to meet Angel face to face after talking for all these months. She’s a blast to hang out with - although she thinks Im insane, but eh - she’s not the first, nor the last I’m sure.

For anyone that watches House and Law & Order: SVU - doesn’t the girl that played Wilson’s girlfriend in House and Casey Novak (the DA) in SVU, look alike? I’ve just noticed that while watching an SVU rerun. Weird. Its not completely similar, but its pretty close. Or it could just be my head being retarded, that’s usually the first possibility. Oh and yes, hello random moment.

Tomorrow I gotta go on a hunt at lunchtime for the new Wii Fit game. I had meant to go and reserve a copy of it last week but we went out to dinner and didnt get out of there till late and then just forgot over the rest of the weekend to go. I went on Monday to see if I could get a last minute reservation but GameStop said that they stopped taking them last week, so boo to them. The guy told me to call him at like 11am tomorrow to see if there are any leftover from the preorder pick-ups. I hope so - it looks like a blast and I could afford to lose a few pounds (shush baby lol).

On another note, my allergies have been kicking my ass soooo hardcore these past few days. The rain and all is making the pollen fly around like crazy so Im sneezing constantly. Shit better stop soon. On a positive note though, its awesome to be able to sleep with the windows open since its so cool out during the night cause of the rain. Anyone who knows me, knows I can’t sleep in hot weather (let alone stand hot, hot weather in general lol), I am just miserable and sweat like hell so I love being all curled up under my blankies. But right now Im curled up at night with Mike’s pillow cause it smells like him

Yes. I’m THAT girl. Leave me alone.

 Angie, Jen, Tro

May  17

Important Note… 2008, 11:19 AM - Word Count: 43 - Filed Under: General - 5 Comments

Id like to take this moment to announce to any potential stalkers:

If you are stalking my blog for information, you will not find it here so please click the [x] located in the top right hand corner, kthx.

Loooooovies to ma bestie!

 Angel, Danika, Lindsey, Matt, Mike

May  16

*Pets Weekend* 2008, 4:52 PM - Word Count: 571 - Filed Under: Friends, General, Site - 1 Comment

Hello weekend, ole friend, ole pal.

I don’t know what is wrong with me this week but I am exhausted like EVERY night when I get home. Im gonna blame it on all the sex. Fair enough.

Tonight I am enjoying a quiet “ordering in food, drinking, watching a movie” type of night with Mike, curled up on the couch. Tomorrow we have a graduation party of his friend to go to and then we are picking Angel up from the airport tomorrow night. Im really excited to finally get a chance to hang out with her since it feels like we have been friends forever, yet somehow its only been like 8 months or something lol. Then Sunday I’ll probably get together with her and Danika at some point throughout the day since Mike is gonna go over my mom’s and fix the shower in Brittany’s bathroom.

Otherwise, Im writing this at work cause its only 4:40PM and Im TRYING to see if I can hold out till 5:23PM (If I wait till a certain minute to clock out, it counts towards 15 minutes of OT Tricking the system FTW.) - but Im not sure Im gonna make it. Im like falling asleep at my desk cause I’m done everything I need to be done for the day/week.

Oh so get this, my ex-boyfriend that I dated before Matt, I found out just passed away a few days ago. He was only 25/26 at most and within the past few months, became a father. We had only dated for a brief period of time when I was like 15, but he was such a nice/sweet guy. He never stopped caring about me and would randomly send me messages on MySpace just asking how I was doing and to show off new pictures of his daughter. He was so excited to be a daddy, I was so happy for him. He was kind of handed the shitty end of the stick when it came to his family, his father (and possibly mother?) becoming hardcore druggies/alcoholics, his younger sister (who used to IDOLIZE me, mind you), becoming a total slut (yeah I know, I left a marvelous impact on that one), and lord knows what happened to his other sister and brother. I havent found anything in regards to a viewing/funeral yet online, but Im gonna contact the person that informed me of his passing and ask, cause I’d really like to be there. Even after we had broken up, he still remained a wonderful friend, that was nice enough to contact me after Matt and I had split, telling me that if I need anything at all, to let him know and that he was there for me. Hopefully his daughter will have pictures and good memories of her father passed onto her while she grows up so she can sort of know who he was.

R.I.P. Joe - we all love and miss you.

*Sidenote* Its only 4:52 now =/ Thats 31 more minutes I have to attempt to survive. Sonofabitch.

*Sidenote Pt. 2* I still have some pages and things to do on the site still (as if you hadn’t noticed) so Im gonna try and get to some of them this weekend if possible but basically, the site is gonna grow slowly yet surely lol.

 Mike

May  15

A Fresh Beginning… 2008, 4:49 PM - Word Count: 485 - Filed Under: Life, Love - 4 Comments

It feels like its been the longest time since Ive blogged and the reason being, is because it has been the longest time. I decided after my split from Matt, and my new chapter of happiness - it was time for Dirty-Martini.Org to go. That was a time of my life I wish to forget and have no desire to bring along with me in this new venture. It carries heavy burdens of sad times and those times are best left in the past.

I guess you can say that Ive changed, because in some ways I have. I feel as though in the last 3 months, Ive become a new person capable of loving myself and appreciating what it is that I have to offer others, but most importantly, myself. I always viewed myself as a strong, independent woman but in all reality, I was weak and dependent on others to convince me that I was happy where I was.

I’ve learned that for a long time, I wasn’t as happy as I forced myself to believe. I’ve experienced true happiness in the last two months, and all that Mike has brought me is something that was never once given to me in nine years. I realized that I was battered and bruised in that relationship; torn down and my self esteem was in the hole. When Mike came around, he had no idea what he was in for - how damaged I really was and how scared I was to give him the opportunity to “fix me”.

I’ve been scared of men all my life. It’s something that stems back to being nine years old that maybe one day I’ll be comfortable enough with the idea of sharing it with the internet world. Those that are close to me, know my story and understand my fear. Can you imagine how comforting and scary it was to not experience that fear in someone for the first time in my adult life? For the first time, I feel safe, but most of all, I feel loved. For ever freckle, mole, scar, every inch of my skin, every flaw I make or say. I’m listened to, respected and understood. That is what makes a woman feel beautiful. We dont need physical things, we need actions to show we are loved and I’m given them; every single day.

I know what people are saying or what they are thinking. “It’s only been two months, its always nice at first.” And while I would normally agree with that sentiment, this feels so different then that. It feels real, it feels complete, and it feels inviting.

Like my co-worker said to me earlier today, “for the first time in the 5 years I’ve worked here and known you, you look genuinely happy.”

Just thinking of the person that makes me feel that way and makes others see, made me smile.

 Angel, Danika, Mike, Not Lyndsey